Okay here’s what I need to stop doing/ need to start doing:
Stop
- drinking pop. This is a new thing, I never drank pop until about 2 months ago
- eating chips (another new thing for me)
- eating so much
- being lazy
Start
- exercising regularly
- drinking WATER
- eating only when hungry!!!
- not so many baked goods
okay so that’s basically what the plan is. The only thing that sucks is that I have a very limited amount of money left until I get a job and fruits and vegetables are so fucking expensive. It’s ridiculous! I’m left eating oatmeal, ramen noodles, and pasta with sauce. I would really really really loooove to be able to buy vegetables and fruits and coconut milk yogurt and yummy 12 grain bread. Man, I miss living at home.
Tomorrow morning I’m going to take my measurements but not weigh myself because I know it will be high because it’s almost time for my period to come. Oh joy, at least I’m not pregnant :)
1:39 am |
December 10 2011
Okay so this is me as of a few days ago. I wish I had an old photo to compare it with just for a laugh but my hard drive died this August (right after I moved, oof) so I lost everything I had on my computer for about 3 years. Sucks, but now I have an external hard drive for important things!
12:20 am |
December 10 2011
Woah, it’s weird that’s it’s been almost a year since I’ve used this blog. Well, I’m using it again now so…
I’m now 20 years old woo! I have moved across the country from Buffalo, New York to Portland, Oregon. I go to art school for photography and live in an apartment with my boyfriend, Miles, a roommate, Victoria, and my cornsnake Jakey.
After losing about 65 lbs I’ve recently discovered that I’ve gained back about 10 of them in around 4 months which was devastating for me. I cried for about 2 days straight and hardly got out of bed. I felt like dying, it really was just the worst news I could get.
Well that was about a month ago and I started doing the thirty day shred after my cry fest was over but after about a week I went home for Thanksgiving and was going to continue my shred buuuut upon my arrival home I found out that my 22 year old brother had just overdosed and was going into rehab. SO, that was just a week long cry fest and I did no sort of exercise whatsoever.
Now I’ve been home for about a week and have been insanely busy with final projects and papers and critiques but it’s finally dying down. I have my last 2 critiques this Monday and Wednesday then i will be done for the semester which is awesome. Next Saturday I’m going back home for 2 weeks (kill me) for Christmas and I do plan on using my beloved treadmill!! I have missed running on my treadmill so much. If I had access to one here in Portland (FOR FREE) I would be loving my life because that is the only form of exercise that I actually enjoy doing. Ah well.
Recently I have been trying to eat less because I know I have been eating way, way too much food lately. I’ve also been trying for smaller portions but this is the worst time for me to be doing this. Stress from my brother and school and trying to find a job and money… it’s all so overwhelming plus I’m getting my period soon so that’s just the icing on this wonderful stress cake. Hopefully after I come home I will get a job and that will alleviate MUCH of my stress because everything else it smoothing itself out which is grand.
Uh, ok so that’s what’s going on in my life right now. I will be using this blog for weight loss ONLY. I will be keeping track of what I eat, and possibly calories I’m not sure, and how much I exercise. I will also be keeping track of my weight and measurements. I’m hoping this will help me out as it has before!
ps- I typed this rather quickly so I don’t know if this makes sense
11:52 pm |
December 9 2011
okay
so I’ve pretty much stopped using this blog. I’m following too many people that make me feel bad about myself and I’ve decided not to track every single thing I eat or every activity I do.
I’m much more comfortable using my other tumblr for the occasional post about weight or weight related things that pop into my mind.
Also, I’ve finally reached the 160s I’m currently weighing in at about 169.something, which is totally wonderful. :)
I’ve began running every morning for 30 minutes and I now take 5 vitamins/supplements, I’ve started drinking more water and less juice/ tea, I’m beginning to cut back on sugars because I’ve been eating way too many lately. I’m just trying to be healthier in general, not necessarily for weight loss.
I’m having a lot f issues with self confidence, as in I have none. I still think I look like shit and I feel like my body looks exactly the same as it did when I still weighed 210lbs. I mean, I know in my mind that I don’t, I just don’t see it when I look in the mirror. I’m still seeing a disgustingly fat person. Its really difficult to get over and I’m hoping that one day I will get over it.
I’m trying to give myself until July to reach my final goal weight which I expect to be around 135ish but I’m not 100% on that. I’ll have to see when I get there. Although, I don’t know if I will ever be happy with my body. 18 years of putting myself down and being put down by others (but mostly myself) because of my weight has really taken its toll on me. So we’ll see I suppose.
If you want to follow my other tumblr its willthisbeforever.tumblr.com Like I said, the focus of that blog is not weight loss, its just for everything I like, which sometimes includes posts about my weight.
So that’s my update. Classes start back up in about a week so hopefully I’ll be able to continue my exercise routine during the semester!
12:10 am |
January 13 2011
It’s been a while
As soon as this school semester is over, 13 more class days! Whoo!, I am going to try and get back to using this tumblr.
I’ve become really scared of gaining my weight back, so I really need to start exercising so it doesn’t all come back.
Also, just eating vegan doesn’t work anymore. I also need to start exercising so that I can keep losing weight. I don’t want to be in the 170s forever.
I’ve been in the 170s for, probably close to 2 months… which is totally ridiculous. I hate the 170s.
I’m planning on being in the 160s by Christmas. I’m about 175/174 right now so I think that’s doable. We’ll see what happens I suppose.
I’ve also been eating a lot of junk lately. I actually ate chips and drank pop which I never do. I’m just really starting to get antsy for this semester to be over and it’s totally fucking me up. I don’t do homework anymore, I skip classes, I’m eating like shit, I stay up until 2 then have to wake up at 5:30 or 7, all I do is go on tumblr anymore. I’m going to limit my tumblr use again.
I need to get my shit together because I’m a mess right now.
3:23 pm |
November 27 2010
So I went to the doctor today
and she told me that my total weight loss is 42 lbs. so far weeheeee!
:)
She also told me a realistic weight will be around 150ish.
Das coo. :)
11:51 pm |
November 17 2010
It’s weird that even though I’ve lost about 35 pounds I feel like I still have the same body.
Obviously I don’t but I feel like I do.
I hope I don’t always feel like this about my body.
11:24 pm |
November 10 2010
Let’s see…
breakfast was a half of a bagel with margarine and a container of mixed berry applesauce. Nommy.
Lunch was a taco shell with hummus and 3 slices of fake bologna.
SNack was an apple, and a piece of cake, and some hummus and pita. LOL
Dinner was one of those Morningstar Farms dealios. And some cake, haaa.
9:25 pm |
November 8 2010
Just had some applesauce and ice water.
Sleep soon
12:46 am |
November 8 2010
I’ve been feeling really low lately
I need to start exercising again. I think that’s part of the problem.
10:04 pm |
November 7 2010
So lunch was: 2 slices of fake bologna in a taco shell with hummus :) I also had some coffee!
Dinner was: this sweet and sour “chicken” dinner from Morning Star Farms. T’was good.
I also had some cake for dessert :3
9:46 pm |
November 7 2010
I thought I would have gained 500 lbs over the past few days that I’ve been going crazy but I just maintained the same weight. Well, I think I dropped like .5 of a pound haha.
But that is good news! I’m glad :)
11:47 am |
November 7 2010
Breakfast!
I went to the falafel bar last night and got a falafel and hummus wrap but it was huge! I ate 1/3 of it at the place and brought the rest home. So, for breakfast this morning I had about 1/4 of the 2/3 that was left before I got full. I also had some birthday cake! :D :D hehe
11:28 am |
November 7 2010
wyareyougsitlll asked: lol sorry for taking so long to reply but i just saw your message
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1:34 pm |
November 6 2010
